CURRENT/ELLIOT SPRING 2012

               

photos via Refinery 29

Why these girls look so bored and annoyed in this lookbook, I don't know. Its springtime and you're wearing the most adorable clothes ever! Seriously now, crack a smile! At least you aren't wearing 19 layers of clothing and still feel cold and don't have dry skin that itches like a mofo. Maybe its because the one chick has to wear lame easter bunny ears and pose on a toilet. Okay, I'll admit the bathroom is a pretty color that matches the pants and all, but really?! Not such a natural setting, although I do frequent bathrooms with my best girl friends, but we don't stand there and pose looking all bored like that with one foot on the toilet....
Anyway, I love the girlishness and easy breeziness of the styling with classic denim. Saddle shoes have always been a favorite ever since my sister Sarah and I had our own pairs when we were little, hers pink, mine classic black. The cute bow barrettes are something I am going to have to find/ make? I smell a DIY project! All in all, perfect spring inspiration. Now if only, the winter months will disappear?

REMAINING NEUTRAL

Listening: Cabinet of Curiosities on Vinyl (christmas gift from Jeramy)
Wearing: Target Cardigan and cozy socks with my new citrine drop necklace (also gift from Jeramy)
Doing: Drawing moonstone runes (another gift on behalf of Jeramy)
Reading: An Awakening, By Kate Chopin

THE HEART OF THE MATTER

I just really wanted to let you all know that I really appreciated your well wishes. This year so far, although we are only six days in,  has been great, I've been really trying to maintain a positive attitude which has been helping me tremendously. It scares me a little bit that I'm not sure what is in store for this year, but I am definitely down for an adventure!

Outfit Details: Blazer... Vintage Pendleton, Sheer Blouse... Grandmother's, High-waisted Jeans...BDG, 5'0 Clock Tea Havana Glasses... Bonlook, Loafers...Bass

MELANCHOLIA

I touched upon depression in my last post how it has been a constant struggle for myself. I've never been diagnosed with depression, but I strongly believe that we have all experienced it to some degree. I recently saw the film Melancholia, a film starring Kirsten Dunst and Charlotte Gainsbourg and directed by Lars Von Trier. Set in a time where the end of the world is imminent,  it beautifully depicts how depression can affect a human so deeply. With existence nearing an end, each character loses themselves in sadness, with some finding themselves again (at least in a state of understanding their depression). Von Trier accurately delves into what it means to experience an ever consuming sadness and in what ways it can affect the person and those who care for them. The cinematography is a work of art in and of itself. With each camera frame as if it were a painting hung on the wall of an impressive english estate that the film is set. If depression is something that affects you or a loved one, I suggest this movie as it brings to light why sadness is one of the most powerful emotions that we can experience. If you do see it, I suggest that you go with somebody and grab a cup of coffee afterward to discuss the movie and digest its contents, it is definetly a lot to take in.

NEW YEAR'S REVELATIONS

Reflecting back on 2011, its hard to believe another year has already started. More than ever I notice that time is truly fleeting and too precious to waste. Although, the majority of my year succumbed to negativity and depression, I've discovered and learned so much about myself that I have to be grateful that 2011 even occurred. Most importantly I have begun to understand why I have been making myself so miserable. It all boils down to a severe lack of self esteem. I have been keeping the people I love at an arms length, including my own self. I've been carrying around a crippling fear of being rejected for so long, that I did not even realize that by not letting people in, I was causing myself more and more isolation. In effect, it was myself that was creating this world of rejection surrounding me because I was afraid of being abandoned by those I love. It has only recently come to my attention that I was doing this and now that I do understand that my actions were not serving my well-being, I am committed to make the necessary effort to let love in and in turn to love myself wholly and completely. For me, 2012 means the year in which I focus and nurture my emotional, physical, and creative needs. I wish you all the best in the coming year and may you love with all you hearts. Don't ever hold back.

Outfit Details: Vintage Cashmere Swing Coat...Thrifted, Jeans...BDG, Chelsea Boots... Asos
Photos by Jeramy